Short Story I Love u, but I Love him more

I Love u, but I love HIM more...

" Dinda ... I love you "

Still the voice of his voice pounding in my mind..

i still remember when he said that word. It's New Years Night. So sad that i can't be with him. But the feeling  was eased by his phone call. and his words..
Then when he came back, he brought me a nice veil and bracelet for me. i really love it.
We talk for a while and enjoy the togetherness between us.
Though we know it wouldn't last forever, we just looked each other and smile.

I know him accidentally. It's from a game in facebook. Coz, we meet in the game frequently, we become closer. Don't know the feeling was so correct for me and him. We feel that we've known for long. Then he gimme a call, at that time in my life i speak to a person for 8 hours.

Then he asked me to meet, i said it's too short to see each other. After weeks, i decided to see him. When i see him, the feeling was more comfortable. i feel secure beside him. He also feeling the same. We met each other every weekend, whether in mall, in his dorm and another exciting place. Until we come into one point, as a muslim i wanna take a pray. We walked to the nearest mosque. But i raised my eyebrows, he didn't get into a mosque. He just sit outside. 

"I am a Christian, is it a matter?"
I just looked at him. 
The next meeting i went to his house, his family was so welcome. I feel grateful to meet her mother, bro, and his funny dad. There i knew that his dad was a Muslim but change his belief into Christian. Her mother really want me to become her daughter in law. She said, actually we both fit one another, except religion. She said "is it ok that you change your religion, the most important thing both of you respect and love each other."
I just kept smile, deep in my heart crying.
Then comes a day where he ask me to follow his belief, "will  you join me as a christian?"
Dear lord, i'm so shock and confuse. "ok, with one condition" sigh..
"Dinda, i will do anything for you.. ask me.."
I said "find in your bible that saying I am your lord so follow me"
Until you find it, lets dont see each other first.
The next day we just phone each other. Day passed by, until a month.
I said,"Kanda, Have you find it?"
"Not yet, Dinda. I'm not a good Christian but I have read it. And can't find it"
"well,so it's time for us, " i said
"for what..? don't say you will leave me!"
"yes, i will"
"please don't do this!" I need you, I love you, Give me a time"

" I love you, but I love Him more!" There is only one god for me, Allah,SWT. And one religion for me that is Islam". 
"if we still together, we will hurt each other, i'm sorry"
From now on we never have a contact anymore, never seen him anymore, but i realize one thing, love is not just for a while, but for a life. And I only place my life to Him.